To all of you who find yourselves navigating life's toughest terrain alone, this is for you.
For years, I've come to understand the profound importance of being my own dependable support system. Many of you, like me, may have faced the reality of having little to no external support, even from those closest to you. For over 20 years, despite my hopes, I have not received the proactive support I deeply yearn for from my wife and children.
Being self-reliant has taught me invaluable lessons about resilience and perseverance. Each day brings new physical challenges, and my options are limited. Starting over from zero and nearly paralyzed is far from an ideal starting point. As disheartening as it is to admit, the likelihood of becoming a ward of the state is becoming increasingly real for me.
I don’t ask anything of my family. I genuinely wish them well on their journeys. My focus now is on supporting myself, even as the struggle becomes more intense with each passing day. It's disheartening when decisions are made without considering the immediate or long-term consequences, leaving me to bear the brunt of those choices.
Too many people around me have either outright told me to take my life, put me in a position to die, or neglected me when I needed support the most. I've realized the extreme value of self-support, not just as a necessity but as a testament to my inner strength. This recognition doesn't diminish the aching need for a support system, but it solidifies my determination to persevere.
Reflecting on past incidents, such as when my wife’s disregard for planning escalated into a police intervention, I see patterns of behavior that stem from deeper issues. The ripple effects of narcissistic control and lack of empathy have strained family dynamics and created additional emotional and physical burdens.
To anyone reading this who feels unsupported and at their wits’ end, remember the power within yourself. Embrace your inner strength, and focus on what you can control. We all deserve a support system, but when it's lacking, we must find ways to be our own champions.
As I embark on this new journey of self-reliance and transformation, I find solace and purpose in my work with Thoughtful Threads AI and The Vanguard Pulse. These projects represent my commitment to innovation and renewal, even amidst personal challenges. If you'd like to follow my progress and insights, I invite you to visit The Vanguard Pulse.
May we all find the strength to support ourselves, even in the toughest of times. You are not alone in your struggle, and together, we can rise above our challenges.
If you feel overwhelmed or in crisis, please seek help. There are resources and people who care about your well-being.